confrontation

last time, i used to keep quiet and hide under my straight face when i'm dissatisfied with certain issue or somebody had pissed me off. i was really timid of confrontation, i will use any kind of ways to avoid it. till now, i'm still like that. don't like confrontations. i used to think why dave' like to confront certain situation that happened to him (or shall i say 'sengaja cari pasal') haha. i really didnt understand why you need to confront a situation, people and issue face-to-face.

well, now i'm beginning to feel the need of a direct confrontation/ indirect confrontation (in my case; when i'm angry, i would show my face to the people who provoke me directly/indirectly). gone were the times that i will 'make myself' feel that everything is ok, if you're patient enough and be more tolerant of others. i used to think i will avoid showing my 'face' to people and fight back when i faced certain issue/people.

well, i was wrong about myself. just the other day when i required to do O.T till 2am. that morning, i went to work as usual ( plus with an angry feeling). my face really showed it all to the people around me esp some assholes (i don't consider them human). Soon, my boss and a colleague (an ass) came upstairs and wanted to discuss with me some important stuff. i 'showed' them my pissed-off face. i really can't hide it anymore. i was really pissed since i started working here. never been pissed with so many people at the same place/time.

just now, i received a call from a colleague. i really begin to hate that S.O.B. the way he talked, was pretty irritating. he always pretends that he's the boss. i'm lazy to elaborate more. but he really pissed me off this time, that i will certain burst it to his face (in the near future; in case i'm still in the company) i really don't give a fuck anymore bout everything in the company, esp those few people who's giving me some pretty hard times. if he talks me like he's the boss (he kept asking me to repeat what he 'ordered' me to do) the phone, i will surely 'fuck' him back nicely. i already say to myself that the next time he pissed me off again, he will really get it from me..