whaoooo...what a nightmare

when you grew older, you would think that that the 'supernatural beings' never existed in this world. and there's no such things as ghost and bla bla bla. i had some pretty bad experience when dealing with some 'supernatural' kind of things. some people would say i taking nonsense, and they would there no such thing as ghosts and all of their kinds.

in recent days, i seldom encountered any of these situations, but during February this year, i got a 'visitor'. if i'm not mistaken, it was my grandpa. and it was my first day of work in my life (minus the times when i used to help out my parent in the market during my schooling years). i was pretty sure it was 'him'. as i'm one his fav grandson. since i'm young, my granpa used to bring me along wherever he goes be it the Hainan Assco in town centre, the market place (early morning) for breakfast, and all the place you can imagine. and my grandpa even asked me to go to a betting shop when i was just barely 10 years old. boy, i was scared. i was pretty timid then. and ocassionally i would hold his steering wheel when he was driving while lit up his cigarette. and whenever he goes to the Hainan Asscociation for a few games of mahjong, i would also would be there. no..i'm not there to play. but i'm just to loaf around, and take the opportunity to eat more. i would order food from a stall helper whenever he came up the the 'gaming room'.
and one more thing, everytime i would pester him to buy me toys when the opportunity arises, when i'm in the supermarket. sometimes i would ask my grandpa for some money to buy toys. boy..am i greedy or what. or should i say 'manipulative'. such a 'devil'..haha. i still remembered that i bought a batman figure. when he sent me back home, my younger bro would get jealous of my new toy and in turn, he would pester my mom/ grandma (mom's side) to buy him one. so in the end we would get one figure each. happy ending..

well, the sad ending was when i just started secodary school. in less than a month, my grandpa was admitted to the hospital. before that, he was admitted a few times. when he was sick, he would take all kinds of medication. be it those western medicine or eastern herbs or sometimes even some street medicine recommened by his friends. i had seen him taking to pills with yellowish powders inside. maybe that's the reason that his health is failling him. on the 28th of Dec, my parent went to school early to picked me up. they said to me that my grandpa can't hold on anymore. when i reached there, i went inside the ward, standing beside his bed. seeing his worsened conditions really saddens me. he could barely talk, all he does was holding my hand. and i could not hold my tears. hours later we went home. my aunt and uncle was there to accompany him for the rest of the night. so the next morning around 5 to 6 am. my grandpa passed away. it was 11 years ago.

well, at least occasionally i would get visited. although sometimes it freaks me out. according to one of neighbours, (she could see ghost, you see) she often saw my grandpa came for a visit. and she told us that my grandpa can even remembered who she was. and there are a few times, i would feel my grandpa sat on my bed. and this i'm not bluffing... i remembered on 2 occasion (one was at my aunt's place; in the room where my grandpa used to sleep, and another one is in my own room.) in that 2 occasion, i would feel someone sat on the mattress. and i'm not dreaming at all. the mattress would suddenly sunk in as a person was sitting on the edge of it. on the second occasion, i could even feel my grandpa leaning on my legs (and my legs got goosebups all over it, and i could feel the chill of it) even my mom, sis told me that they experienced it when they slept in my grandpa's room.

well, yesterday night 'maya karin' woke up around 12midnite. i was having a nightmare actually. i dreamt that a pontianak (maya starred in that movie)was in my room. gosh..i was pretty freak out. who would thought that a 24 year old would scared of his own nightmare.