last blog from the office

this i supposed to be the last blog from my work place. but i'm still in the office, lepak, oding stupid jokes. somehow i feel free, and the thing i'm sad about is i will leave some of the most craziest people that i ever meet. rock on, baby!!! hell yeah

good news

just when i thought my life's going down, things are finally picking up. frankly, i don't give 2 fucks bout my retrenchment. i already taste it before, so it's easier to handle and accept.

just a few hours earlier, i got 2 phone calls from 2 company, 1 is in bukit bintang (near sungai wang) and the other one is in kelana jaya. so, i have to like go to the first 1st interview at 5pm and the second one in kelana jaya at 7:30. rush hour man... fuck and that's the time where there will be hell lot of people going back home. but i need to finish up some stuff first. my presentation and portfolio.

boardroom metting

finally, i've been called to the conference room where the MD, GM and one other guy is wating for me. i already knew and expect what will happened to me. it's fated... so i didnt have any big reactions. just nod my head, said a few words.

eventhough i've been retrenced the MD said to me that i'm welcome to join them again when the business pick up again. i'm not sure whether he meant it. but there's one thing he said that would satisfy me...he said the reason i got retrenched is not because of my work (phewww...what a relieve). you see..i've been going through shits the first and the second months, and even the MD wanted me out. so just now he told me that the GM told him that i have already improved a lot, now that's a good thing to hear. this proved that i can do it....

well...it's holiday time for me. maybe will holiday for a week, before starting to find new jobs. any one got jobs for me??

why do we fall down? so we can learn to pick ourselves up

recent week, i received a news (or i thought it was a rumour) that the company is going to laid off some people. unfortunately , my other colleague atold me to prepare that i maybe be one of them. so today, i already asked one of the potential 'victim-of-bad business-slumps' whether i am one of the that was going to be laid off. why the fuck..it always had to be ME. last time around, i was into this shit also.. being laid off. i had already improved myself and didnt give much problems to the other people. but instead, there's this fucking malay girl who always back-stabbed me in front of the MD (juz because of the things that i can't do when i started out in this company. till now, she's still doing the back-stabbing, saying that i'm not good, too slow etc. for this kind of people, i just hope that someday, she will get it back from other people. and rumours had it that she stole her own colleague's client. what a fucking bitch. just because of her, now i need to find another new job.

i don't what my mom's gonna react to this. one day, i will show it to them. i felt that i had let them down...
the band is going nowhere, and my career is going down hill. just when things are getting better, the door just slam on your face. WHY THE HELL THESE KIND OF STUFF ALWAYS HAPPENS TO ME?

"why do we fall down? so we can learn to PICK OURSELVES' UP" - thomas wayne

crazy things that i would do

i was duped to work on saturday and unfortunately that bugger who asked me to go there did actually arrive in the office. so i was doing his damn stuff on my own. asshole!!!!!

later went to amcorp mall to meet up with my little cousin and his friend. i promised that i would bring them to watch batman begins. gotta keep my promise. chyn would go too along with his friends (a couple). spent some time in the action figure shop. i was tempted to buy another batman figure (fortunately i didnt) pheww!!!!
bought a bowl of tomyam from a stall. there's this thai fair in ampcorp mall. quite ok, but nothing to shout about. i noticed that the lady put in some condensed milk inside the tomyam... then something bad happened. chyn talked to me, i turn to face him and then i accidently spilled the hot soup onto my hands. i was like fuck..that's hot, but i cant really react. how can i throw the bowl on the floor or just let it go. i would accidently injured someone with that hot thing. i was left to bear the pain myself. went back around 7pm.

at night i called my bro. i asked him whether he wanted to come to sri sentosa for a drink and to loaf around. then he asked me to borrow my aunty's car. then i told him i wouldn't do that. dont wanna created more problem with the car borrowing thing again. so we thought that we'll borrow car from our uncle. at first we don't have anyhwere to go. then he suddenly suggested something. somehow, i know what's in his mind. and i was right. he wanted to go to genting highland.

and we started our journey there. went the petrol station to fill up the car and our suppply. bought some junk food. we didnt had any preparation, not sweater, jackets etc. just a tshirt and mid length khaki. journey up the hill was not good. the car didnt packed with a powerful engine. it was kinda a struggle to go up.
reached there about 12:40am. standing there with minimal clothing really gives you the chill. but it was damn cooling and chilling at the same time. after a while, when it was too cold for us, we decided to walk around. we ate something at Mc'D. after a short walk, we decided to go back to the car. beofre that, we stand at the parking lot just to talk and enjoy the damn cold breeze. when it's getting too cold. it's time to head back for the car. we ate some junk food, talk, listen to cd's then sleep a an hour or so before heading back to kl to fetch his girlfriend at the bus station. that was like at 5am++. i cant barely opened up eyes. after sending back my bro's gf sis back to her place. we head back to my bro's palce, where he would go to sleep and i sat there at the living playing PS2. and batman begins. quite cool game, but better if we can manage to manipulate the environment ourselves. the choice are quite limited (the scare tactics).

around 7:40am, we went back to sri sentosa. had breakfast with my uncle. i didnt eat a heavy breakfast, just 2 pieces of bread and a glass of iced milo. go back, and sleep around 9am. it's quite noisy inside the room coz my cousins are playing with his friend in the room. but i was too tired to care bout that. i woke up at 5pm++. and my...my head is heavy today. even now...gosh.

i enven got a sms from dave, but i dont remember what i replied to him coz i was like damn blur...

Bombs Away.....

how many times you remember that when your doing something, anything, be it it sitting down drinking with colleague, walking down the street, etc.....then SUDDENLY you some wierd noise above you. before you can move, something just hit on the ground just like 1 feet next to you. i got this experience... (and luckily it was not a bomb, a grand piano or a car...it a crow that had been shot) after i heard a shot being fired, the next i saw was my colleagues were trying to avoid something from the air, so i ducked a bit. the next thing i heard, some flapping sound above my head. seconds later, an injured crow landed like a feet from me. i was almost hit by a crow 'diving' from the sky. that was a close call... well if it's a Les Paul or PRS or whatever guitar that fell from the sky, i won't mind it at all....

ealier on, my bro asked me whether i'm free today coz he wanted to watch Initial D so badly that he can't really wait. but unfortunately, i got this damn thing that i need to do. coz i dun have time to finish it yesterday. i supposed to do it yesterday, but since my fellow colleague were on MC, i need to handle all the day's dailies and material and etc. fuck, i was like doing it all by myself. i got this practical trainee here, but she was just doing some minor stuff, and she was a bit slow (just like me, when i first came in here...but the good thing is, she didn't make too many mistakes like i did, and didn't get fucked by other people)

maybe i'll go for initial D tomorrow after work. woohoo..but not a true fan, but i did watch a few episodes of that. Cant wait. after this the street will be filled with racers wannabe doing all kind of stupid stunts, ie drifting, power sliding etc.

batman

-i got the news that becky's dad passed away. so sorry to hear that.

-i got this idea to write a song. it's about 'human' parasite. the ones that will suck you dry, drain all your resources, and use you to the max. and i gotta do this. gonna show my temper to that fucking bitch. i had enough already. ENOUGH, of that crappy bullshit she gave me. Ignore my message, huh.... fucking bitch.

-yesterday i got this urge to watch batman begins. and what cool show. what i admires about christian bale's acting is when he donned the 'bat-suit', he really sounds angry and pissed off with those criminal (he hated those criminals to the guts). i can really 'sensed' his anger towards crooks. that's what you got from accumulating all those angry feelings for years. IMHO, he's more convincing compared to the 3 previous actors (michael keaton, val kilmer and george clooney). gonna watch it again. going to bring my little cousins to watch it, maybe on saturday. chyn is joining us too. and this batman can really 'flies' , man.

-these days, there were few recruitment ads that came into the studio. this time of the year, there were people employers that wanted to hire new staff. so..it kinda free, except now those AE's were damn 'hardworking', bringing all those pitching jobs to us and make us suffers. they simply cut out a newspaper clipping, attached it to the J.O, and gave all the hardwork to us. and they were giving like 2-3 clippings each. damn!!!

who's the blind one + the malaysian daredevil

i wanted to have a say on this issue for quite a long time. but it never came to my mind when i blogged. so now, it's time to say something.
in my work place (bangsar), i 've noticed a few couples (some husband and wife, frens (man + man combo), some odd ones too-malay and chinese lady, a young couple - ard mid 20's) were begging for money during the peak hour @ lunch time. these couples (one of them is blind or partial blind) would go to every bloody table there is in every bloody restaurant and stalls to beg for money. i would rather ignore them than paying them up because:

1) the young couple was not all disabled. even though he was blind, he could have enrol in some schools or associations to learn some vocational skills. all they want is easy money. it's a no no for you man... well his partner, is not blind at all. and he/she will be guiding the blind one to each and every table customer in those retaurants.

2) there's one couple (the man + man), with one of them is not blind at all but pretended to be blind. and for me, his acting is damn bad. this particular guy, would roll up his eyes (watching upwards), and would walk with his cane 'floating', not using it as a guide. normally a blind person would use the cane as their 'eyes'. but not this man, he can walk without the cane, and still managed to avoid all obstacles in front of him, swerving left and right, in and out, and would approach tables with restaurant patron and avoid all the empty tables. how 'good' that acting can be. maybe he's one of those 'gifted' blind person with the ability of 'the daredevil' (the comic book character). the malaysian version of daredevil. and once when i went back home late, i saw this guy 'the malaysian daredevil' sitting at the bus stop chatting away happily and smoking a cigarette. 'looking left and right' with his 'now-recovered' eye sight.
there's one thing i would like to comment now, and it's not about the so-called-blind beggars, but the people who gave them the money. i had noticed that majority of them just giving away their money without observing the disabilities, behaviour, and action. how many blind person who can walk without the help of their cane and still managed to avoid all obstacles. of course, the malaysian 'daredevil' can. and for once, let's us think for a moment.

WHO'S THE BLIND ONE??? THE ONES WHO PRETENDED TO BE BLIND OR THE GOOD HEARTED MALAYSIAN WHO GAVE THEIR MONEY BLINDLY (MANY OF THEM WOULD JUST PASS THE MONEY WITH EVEN LOOKING WHO THAT THEY ARE GIVING THEIR MOONEY TO).

list of things to do!!!

billy corgan's album is coming out. cant wait for that. listen to one of the single "walking shade". no comment yet. and batman begins starts tomorrow. wanna go and watch it. maybe ask chyn or dave and fei or anybody that's interested. maybe planning to watch initial D. not really a huge fan, but there's no harm learning a trick or two in drifting. hahah...

told my mom thati can't afford to help her pay the mothly car installment. since i plan to start paying for my loan, so every month, i will 'lose' like 200 bucks even before the first week. aiyo, need to find a better paid job. i hated the salary given here. maybe it's time for a greener pasture.

i seriosly need a better paid job. living with 1.2K++ is not a good thing in kl. if i moved out to other place, it's worse. can't imagine it now.

some good, some bad and some pretty disgusting

the good:
went to to buy and acoustic axe. not expensive but it took a whole 'small portion' of my monthly salary. finally i can play an axe without plugging in the guitar amp. i just wanna buy a cheapo acoustic considering that i'm not really a good acoustic player. cant play finger style etc. can only play lousy chords. let's say that i'm going back to my 'roots' now. the first thing i do with my axe was sticking the surface of the soundboard with a john lennon sticker that i bought a few years ago, from a trip to 'the mall' with dave. i dont think he remembered. we were there for a book exhibition at PWTC. Well, there's no excuse that the band can't develop our material from now own.

the bad:
overspent this month. in hell a lot of shits now. will urge chyn to repay me back asap. he promised he will. and there's this indian bitch in my office who refuses to pay me back my money. she's been ignoring all my messages asking her to pay me back. i can still be patient coz i'm the kind of person that will absorb all the fucking thig that you did to me (and still i won't give a shit) but when the time comes (that's when i cant stand no more), i will suddenly turn into something ugly, disgusting and mean. something like the hulk, when he can't stand no more, the other person will be in deep shit. i hope i wont resolve to that.

the pretty disgusting:
as i was on way to work, i sat this college kid from TAR college waiting for the train. then i noticed one damn fucking huge teddy bear hanging from his phone. i was like.....GOSH.... what the hell is that man. i knew some guys do hang something (like key-chain thingy on their phone - my brother does, he hangs a Man Utd kit (number 18-scholes) on his phone). but that guy's teddy bear was like almost 5-6 inches tall. and all the human being in this fucking world knew that guys and teddy bears can't mix together. if you got this fancy admiration in teddy bears, PLEASE KEEP IT AT HOME!!!!!

mc

went to work yesterday. everything seem ok but SUDDENLY, I GOT DAMN STOMACH CRAMP!! it was the first and the worst that i had ever experienced. i hope it will be first and the last. the pain was unbearable and i want is somebody to hit me hard on the head with a baseball bat and let me fly to 'anyland' ie, slumberland, dreamland or anywhere else except HERE in the real world. i'm shaking and trembling and sweating like a dog. and i have to drag myself to the clinic and to the taxi stand. even in the taxi i was in pain. luckily the medicine that was given to me worked. if not...i cant imagine bearing all those pain for the whole damn day. that few hours were really hell me. to me ti was noing compared to people who suffers from cancer and other disease...

wooooo....

today, a colleague thank me the good job done for his client. wow..that's a first, man. all my time here, i was damn scared of giving people shits, and get back shits from them, but NOW...NOW i even got praised. gotta work harder and be a better designer.

finally this month, we can meet up to discuss about the band and songs. it's been a while..man. i think we got to be a 3 piece band first, coz the bassist iskinda busy in his home town.