why do we fall down? so we can learn to pick ourselves up

recent week, i received a news (or i thought it was a rumour) that the company is going to laid off some people. unfortunately , my other colleague atold me to prepare that i maybe be one of them. so today, i already asked one of the potential 'victim-of-bad business-slumps' whether i am one of the that was going to be laid off. why the fuck..it always had to be ME. last time around, i was into this shit also.. being laid off. i had already improved myself and didnt give much problems to the other people. but instead, there's this fucking malay girl who always back-stabbed me in front of the MD (juz because of the things that i can't do when i started out in this company. till now, she's still doing the back-stabbing, saying that i'm not good, too slow etc. for this kind of people, i just hope that someday, she will get it back from other people. and rumours had it that she stole her own colleague's client. what a fucking bitch. just because of her, now i need to find another new job.

i don't what my mom's gonna react to this. one day, i will show it to them. i felt that i had let them down...
the band is going nowhere, and my career is going down hill. just when things are getting better, the door just slam on your face. WHY THE HELL THESE KIND OF STUFF ALWAYS HAPPENS TO ME?

"why do we fall down? so we can learn to PICK OURSELVES' UP" - thomas wayne