arghhhh...help!!!! here comes the pain

arghhh...my fucking leg is giving me problems again. i really hate when it happens. damn, it's time for the pharmacy again. these bloaody gout really came uninvited. bloody bastards.

I'm gonna "kick of a storm"

ok, i told the rest that i'm not gonna reveal the secret. so i won't. i already designed some graphics for this 'secret project' of mine. and dave already saw the graphics. fei..i don't know. whether he had already gone through it.

well, kinda satisfied with the graphics. some are usable, some aren't. well, that's designing. u gotta let go something. only 1 or 2 will be selected.
-since not a lot of people will read my blog, people won't even know if i revealed my secret project to the mass. woohoo...
at last, i did something for myself.

since i started working, i never got a good start even to this year, life is not good. there's 1 thing that is good when i started working in kl is i got extra income to spare for other things coz i'm staying with my aunt. but i think it's not good since her children are growing up and for me to share a room with those children; it's kinda crampy. other than this, my career is just like 'shit'. well, i could learn a few things here and there. some says, 'good lah, can learn something what'. well i got my share of shits thrown to my face esp from the previous company. the wife is just getting more and more personal in venting her anger towards me. for small mistakes, i will get fuck like i had made them pay a million for the mistake i made (which i never did).

and the pay, i can say it's shitty all the time. why the hell other people can get like at least 1.8K and above when they started working? most of my friends already own a car, planning to own a house, buy this and that, had a more stable life and career. for me even owning a damn fucking second hand bike gives me a headache. and not mentioning renting a place outside. FOR ONCE AND FOR ALL, I'M GONNA END THIS, this fucking BULLSHITS!!! and NO, I'M NOT GONNA END MY LIFE, IT'S CRAZY AND I DON'T HAVE THE GUTS TO DO IT ALSO.

i'm gonna do something bout it, i'm gonna go all out with this project and CHANGE MY LIFE. the project would not be a revolutionary one but it can still be a (hopefully) potential money earning project and creative output (with no boundaries).

ohh...the date is near

well, i'm gonna start my new job soon. and shit, i still stuck with freehand. still cant get familiar with it. i hope it wont slow me down in my work. i think i got myself in a mess. maybe tonite i need to do some design for my project. hopefully can come out with something good!!!
and i listened to a local chick who's a budding musician/song-writer. and she got good reviews for album. personally it's just 5th chord all along the way, and flat singing. maybe someone will say that i didnt listen to the lyrics, maybe it's meaningful or what-so-ever, but what the point of making music if the melodies are flat and the playing got no soul. even she was palying 5th chords, i don't feel anything, even though i was one of those 5th chords addict. she gotta get vocal lessons from mia palencia. seriously!!!

arghhh....lack of sleep again

these days are really hell. can't get enough sleep. and 1 thing good is that that's when my head will start to think of a lot and a whole lot of things ie, musical ideas and the dream project.
i already jot down a lot of ideas and things related to my project. i hope it will turn out good. not sure how to raise 'funds' to start the project since i'm like broke and don't have much in my account.

I salute you, ROY KEANE

i was quite surprised when picked up today's paper. the sport headlines was: Roy Keane had quit Manchester United. i could never imagined that he suddenly exited the club, as he told that he will quit only at the end of the season. i personally think that it will be a blow the United midfield. We could see how they had perform during the absense of him. and i'm pretty sure that United need to find another suitable replacement fast.
Keane, you are truly one of the greats!!!!! Thanks for all those years.

okie, where should i start???

i never consider myself a business savvy person, never interested in business anyway, and anything that relates to it. what can i say bout it, i consider myself a creative person (most of the times), i'm into graphic design and playing music, writing songs and played in a band. so DOING anything related to business like is WRONG (for me, maybe not others). i even talk to dave bout it today as we blah from hanna's place today from Ara Damansara. so after those bullshits, we reached bangsar @ Home Studio. we didnt start to play but we took 'tour' to Bangsar Village. Lepak etc.

Jamming Session:
eveything turn out ok, i guess like the usual days. we were function like a real band except no bassist. when we sit down and play it usually turns me into somesort of lazy guitar player. turning off from playing properly. so i was like sitting down, looking bored, listening to dave playing 'yesterday', with arms wide open' etc. nothing special happened.

Post Jamming Session:
well, this the part i like most. we talking bout some crazy ideas for business. i heard some ideas from dave, then i was like 'proposing mine to fei and dave', and i was quite suprised that they like that idea so much and we even planned to make that idea into a business venture. hmm....just in the evening that we said that we hope to be borned a business minded person. and said that we were not into business. a few hours later, we were talking business. for the time being, i cant reveal anything yet. hahah. TOP SECRET!! we even wrote all our plans in a pice of paper, and making our first prototype of our product. Woohooo..my first business plans

no sleep yesterday nite

tried to sleep early yesterday nite but i cant. to i was like 'visualizing' some riff and solos in my head. then i got something. just wake up and try to paly all that thing in my head. managed to play it but unfortuantely when i woke up the next afternoon, i had forgotten all of it. damn. i think next time i should buy some recording gadget but it should be costly like hell. a lost idea is a lost idea. and i managed to write sme j-rockish kinda song. hmm...i think i need to somebody to sing over it.

new job but still the same ol pay

well, got a new job recently, it was recommended by one of my friend and former coursemate. at least the process of getting a new job was quite easy similiar to the previous job. and better still i never need to search for the newspaper. unfortunately i needed to relearn a software (Freehand, that is). i found that it was just not my type of software to use, maybe i'm used to softwares from Adobe, ie Illustrator, Photoshop, In-design. it's more user friendly.
jammed yesterday, some of the old songs sounded quite ok. i really liked the cover song from the beatles "don't let me down". it sounded so peaceful, and intimate and the mood from quite different from the previous and other songs that we had done. we rehearse some new songs and old songs and even a machine-gun version of "resurrection". and we planned to play gig at shelley's. hmm...i wasnt sure for some songs. my part wasnt ready yet. and like dave said, i'm a bit of a chicken on stage. i really need to face my own fear.
to tell the truth, the band wasnt progressing much these days because of the absense of the bassist. we really need the bassist to play as a band. eventhough, dave can play the bass, his playing was very much guitar-like. one of the most important aspect of bass playing is groove. and we really need to work on the bass part together.