oo..i like contest!!!!!

been thinking of participating in some design contest organised by a local bank and a local ministry. the 1st one was a logo design (i know i designs kinda suck, but who cares, and who knows i might win some cash) the other one was a poster design (about recycling). the same ol issue (which can't be settle or fixed even the government spend 100 millions on campaigns etc.) what's the use of those campaigns when the people don't gives a damn bout it. for them it's a signboard by the road side, or any advertisement on tv or radio. something like the "Tak Nak" campaign. i don't think wannabe smoker gives a damn bout that.

well, gotta do some research on the bank and poster design. gotta think of something outstanding.

and jamming these few days were cool. i'm going back to the usual "goreng tak tentu pasal" phase or should i say improvisation phase. i don't give a fuck even i play bum notes in those improvisations. even professional musicians had their bum notes days. been speaking to the guys bout the future of the band, and we came up with bizarre thing; alter ego bands, etc. but i still say that we need to work out on the songs/riffs/licks that me or dave had written. at least we had written some lyrics or do some arrangements. everything is kinda stale these days. and we need the bassist to join us. although we can jam as a 3 piece, but playing together as a complete band give you more satisfaction.

depression sunk in!

feeling kinda depressed this week. it's because of my work. been into shits, heavy shits. i never imagine i could be into these kind of trouble. i been doing those pitching jobs, and they were not up to standard. and for that, i'm in the 'spotlight'. i'm not sure whether that the news was true or not. one of my colleague told me that the MD was quite pissed of with me, because of those pitching jobs. my stuff had been rejected like hell. i know they were not very good. i tried very hard to do a better job, but somehow they were not satisfied. i tried my best. how can u expect somebody to like improve like in a month's time. if everybody can improve in a month's time, why the they require people who work for 5years or 10 years. they can just take a 17 year-old, and they will be fucking good in a month. i admit i did screwed up a some stuff. sometimes i really cant concerntrate on my work, i don't have any distraction, but sometimes, i work for long hours and after i reached home it was already like 10pm++, and the next morning i need to wake up around 6:45am for work. if it's been going on for the past few weeks, i wonder if they could stand it. things are different for people with transportation. they could just wake up around 7:30 and still make it to work on time, and some even come in late for more than half an hour (at 9am++)., even they went back late for the previous day.
i really hope that i won't screw up my job. i enjoyed working there, coz i knew that i could learn a lot of things. the MD was suggested that they should hire someone else instead of paying up somebody that couldn't do the job right. and the AE's were not helpful to me, they would sit down with the other designers to give them ideas, suggestion and changes if they felt it was not good. for me, they just tell me some stuff, and off the go. they don't even bothered to tell me what is wrong with the damn fucking ad (after they take a look at the things that i did). they just shut up and complained to other people. are they trying to screw up my job here. i really hope that fucking bitch will get what she deserved next time. instant karma gonna get you, bitch!!!

give me a break bitch!!!!!

oooooooo..........she's getting on my nerves!!! argh!!!!! FUCK OFF, YOU BITCH!! DIE, DIE, DIE!!
well, problems are coming in. juz i thought i'm starting to improve on myself (in design, of course), there was one particular bitch that would always make me feels shitty, useless and untalented. it's hell a lot of times that she's giving the same problem. my design can't seem to satisfy her. the first one, i must admit that it was suckish. but now, i already trying to design it better. did some research. i'm quite satisfied. after i finished it, i asked one of my colleague to 'check' on it. and ask him to help me to improve the designs a bit. he did some touch up.
still, that bitch is not satisfied.

i think the problem lies here. she already set her mind set to one particular ad. and she wanted me to 'duplicate' exactly a same ad for her, but different company of course.
well, there's a female colleague who thinks i'm her bank. last month, when i'm broke, she asked me to borrow some money to her, although the sum was not big. i understood coz it was like the end of the month, and everybody was damn broke. after the borrowing, came the 'bill' part. she asked me to pay for her drinks and stuff 'first' for so many times. well, being an easy-going person, i don't think there's harm to it. this evening, she borrowed money from me again. hopefully, she will pay me back asap. i need to survive too.

finished work quite early. and since i'm bored going back, i took a shuttle bus to midvalley. hang around for a few hours, browsing through design books and music books. wanted to buy...but now...can't proceed with the buying. been wasting money like hell this week. and will meet up with marni, raslah, or wai kuan in the afternoon, after i finish my work today.

another musical direction?

yesterday was our jamming session (sadly, without bassist). although it sounds empty, but we made some music. our new jamming 'base' was in bangsar, just behind bangsar putra. gears were new, but the amp placement a bit suck. coz both guitarist can't hear what they are playing. maybe it's becoz of the sound.

progress? a bit i shall say... i wanna develop the new song (yes, lots of my songs were undeveloped) i'm sometimes my own worst critique (hmm..is this word right??)...aiya. who cares, i'm not a linguist, hahah.

i got this idea to develop the songs that i had written (and yesterday i told fei bout it) and he seem to agree with my suggestion. so i'll inform to you guys (the bandmates), that i plan to had at least 1 meeting session fortnightly, just discuss and develop the songs together. everybody will get the credit. it's not just (song by me, lyrics by me), or (song by dave, lyrics by dave) or (song by me and lyrics from dave). i knew there would be some hidden troubles if we use this method. the only solution, is to be open minded, and we must do it for the sake of the song itself (maybe now you guys) wont understands, but if we proceed with this, you will know what i mean.

there was two songs that i presented to them yesterday. actually they jammed it once last time. but i don't think wai knew bout it (not sure). it was that travis picking song, but somehow it don't sound countryish. if we sit together and develop that thing, it will be damn cool song.

the other one, the 5/4 song. we were having some troubles coordinating with that time. it sounded stiff. even i wrote the riff, but when it comes to playing with the band, i can't syncronise...ciss!!! we'll settle that later.

the coolest part of the jamming session. the inpromptu song from us. if i'm not mistaken, it started from 2 notes i played. it was like the coolest sound that i had ever played on the guitar. it was the 74th patch on the built-in effect. it was a wah sound. and at the same time, i was using the dirty (distortion channel). when it combines, it was hooked man. and then the rest of the band join in. and we played it with dynamics and some strategically placed silence along the songs. we gave each other signals when to to play harder and play softer, it's like a maestro conducting the orchestra. i'm satisfied, man. although sometimes i need to screamed out the instruction to them (not that the guys can't follow instruction, it was just too noisy). but it was worth it, there are times that we can just play along together so well. and having these guys as bandmates is a bliss...

i think we can perform. just that we are not ready yet and don't have the confidence to do that. if we don't function as a band, how we can do those improvised session. we (i mean me and fei) lacked confidence. it's true...sometimes i under rated myself and my skills.

and wai will be surprised with hyper simple shit song. it was not the usual simple shit with G, D, C, D chords. get ready to rumble....

early in the morning

woke up a bit early today. coz it was raining in the morning. my aunt planning to go out a early just to avoid the jam (as usual). reached taman jaya lrt station early, still can hear the birds chirping every where.
after the whole process (walking to lrt, buy ticket, board the train), i noticed that something is quite wrong with that lrt. it was kinda hot inside. oh..fuck!! the air-cond is faulty.

i wanted to walk out and board another train, but i dun wanna wait for another one to come. so i stay. that was a wrong decision. it was so hot, all all those stench and perfume were mixing in those limited space creeating some of the most awful smell in the whole world. to make matter worst, the journey was quite far away...the worst journey in the whole damn world man...never board a train without air-cond. NEVER...EVER....!! and it was in the morning, can you imagine if it was in the afternoon. somebody could die grasping for air man...

thinking of jamming this week. it's been a while since we jam. tend to be a bit rusty. and got no inspiration to write songs, eventhough i got the lead melody and a few lines of lyrics. somehow i cant continue... somehow those words don't rhyme together but it was one of those 'soul' lines that i can come out with.

"Had God granted you the special rights,
to act like God himself,
and seal the fate of humans"

the words are simple enough, but the message are strong. u know who i dedicated these lines to.

what a week...............

this week had been hell man. for the past 3 days, i've been working like a dog. from wednesday, we need to work on an annual report pitching (for a local bank). pitching is like something of a proposal to a client, just to impress them. and we need to do a mock up for them. so...from wednesday onwards i went back home like 12midnite (tue), 12++ (wed) and on thursday, i work till 6am (friday). arghh!!!!!!! what the hell, i've been so damn tired. luckily i start at 2pm on friday. if not....matilah.

i planned to go back yesterday nite. but unfortunately, they something to do and i can only blah from office after 8pm. when i reached pudu, there were no more bus tickets....what the hell.... but before that i went to kotaraya to get a few games. i bought splinter cell, wanted to buy dragon ball: sagas. but they were all sold out.

luckily, today my bro told me he bought the game already. hahah...but i really need to bring my ps2 to kl. life is boring.

yesterday i wanted to jam but fei's not available. his parents were here in kl, so we can't jam lah. maybe next week lah. easier for everybody. and since i'm working next week, so can jam on saturday and sunday too. and my sis will be coming to my aunt's place today.