Business vs Employment

Gosh.. I think my head is going to blow up anytime soon!!!! This Business VS Employment situation is giving me the headache every fucking day. This is the time where i must trust myself. I seriously wanted to do my own thing, but still there are somethings that is holding me back. SECURITY!! I'm really fighting with myself right now. And now i know what a best friend meant by saying that. I finally I understood what you meant.