Manchester United is in the Champions League Finals

Paul Scholes spectacular long shot is only what it took for Manchester United FC to reach the final of the Champions League final in Moscow. Today I'm really, really happy how the way the team played. It's much much better from the previous outing in Nou Camp.

Woohooo!!!!

Tomorrow's D-Day

Tomorrow is my first in setting up the flea market stall. I'm so excited. Although now... I'm doing in it a small scale. But I will try to grow. I will not just stop at just selling those Little Trees in the flea market. My first baby step in entrepreneur ship... Woohooo.

Damn, gotta go to Amcorp mall to register for a place in the flea market. And also might need to open an account in Maybank. The thing is I'm almost running out of money now. Although i did some so-called freelance job... but I really don't know when i can get the pay.

I'm mother-fucking worried right now.

Kimi win in Spain

Watched a delayed telecast of F1 just now. Totally had forgotten that there's a race. Quite happy that Kimi Raikkonen won the race, followed by Felippe Massa and Lewis Hamilton. The moment of glory went to Mr. Fernando Alonso which had an engine failure. Ohhh... it was just too bad for Mr. Alonso.

I didn't really watched the whole race, but i had noticed that only about 13 cars finished the race. The rest ... was history. Crashes, engine failure etc.

I'm never really a fan of Ferrari, BUT in a twist of fate last year. Mr. Alonso went to McLaren Mercedes. And Kimi Raikkonen switched to Ferrari. I don't why.. but I supported Finnish drivers. I started watching F1 quite late. Late nineties. I've always been the supporter of McLaren Mercedes. Mika Hakkinen was one of my favourite driver at that time.

What a fucked up match!!!

Vidic was injured again. Rooney got a knock. A last minute penalty for a hand ball that wasn't intentional. An escaped Ballack from being penalised for manhandling Ronaldo in the box. And a very weird line up for a match this BIG. Come on, Fergie... What the hell was Darren Fletcher doing in the line up. And opted not to field Tevez and Scholes. It was disastrous...

And REF and the assistant ref... what the FUCK are you doing? You blind or what?

This coming Wednesday early morning, we are hosting Barca for the second leg of the Champions League semi-final. Gotta win this one. No more Fletcher, O' Shea or other 'second' tier players. And please don't play 90mins of defensive football.

Arghh.. everything was so critical right now. Not only in football. But my life as well!!! I gotta stay focus, sharp and disciplined. And must start the Flea market thingy next Saturday.

I MUST DO IT. AND I WILL.

Fate is in my Hand

Some how, I'm feeling pretty anxious right now. Now, I'm getting the feel of not getting any income. And believe me, this really scared the hell out of me. I've always be the "take-it-as-they-come" person, but now i can see that i had really changed.

I just have to believe myself now. Nobody can help me besides myself. I now hold my own fate!!!

LIttle Trees

Went to "Little Trees" today, the outcome was quite good. Very pleased with it. Initially was hoping to only get it to sell at the flea market and on eBay or other online channel. But now it, there were endless possibilities to that. There are more to come. Keep our fingers crossed.


Need to come up with some creative idea so that i can meet people up and convince them to buy the stuff from me without hesitation. I already got this idea. So if can, probably can improvised it more....

Will be going to look at the drums with Fei this Saturday or Sunday.

Barca Vs Man Utd

Can' wait for tonight's Champions League match. Glory Glory Man United.. But need to stay up late. That's the bad thing. And tomorrow need to go for the appointment at 11am. Damn..

AT LAST VICTORY IS MINE

From my previous post, i mentioned that i lent some money to this Indian guy. But every time i tried to collect it from him, he gave hell a lot of excuses. The best part was, he used the same excuse all the time "saying that his boss was not around or his boss his will be coming later tonight." And all the time i would fucking stupidly accepted his stupid excuses. It's not i'm fucking dumb. I just don't want to make a hoo-haa out of the situation.

In the end, I was the one who suffered. It was not the amount of money that troubled me, it was the fact that just I'm just really a softie at heart. My character is not strong enough, not persistent enough and even though I looked 'strong' enough. I can't forgive myself, for letting him go so many times, using the same excuses. I'm not really angry with him, I'm angry with myself for having this soft type of character. One of the reason that motivated me to go down to the store and collect the money was I told myself, "How could I fall to the same excuses so many times, I didn't do something. I went to collect the money so many times, but still I can't complete the job. And I must it TODAY.

THE HISTORICAL MOMENT IN MY LIFE.
I can swear to God that I had never uses brute force to achieve what i want. I could never hurt anyone. I had never even fought with someone all this 28 years. I will try to control my anger or shall I say, I really a bit of a coward. When people would stand up to themselves when they were harmed or picked-on, I would rather run away from the face-off. But today, I know that I need to stand up for myself. I can't forgive myself for being the coward big guy. (So for kids who think that big people are aggressive, brute and downright ruthless, I'm the living proof that a big guy can be a softie)

Just now, I went down to collect my money. As I mentioned earlier on, I expected that bloody motherfucker would uses the same excuses. So i went prepared.

I went out from the lift. Walk slowly to the shop. From afar I saw two guys were sitting on the bench. One of them is that bloody motherfucker and his friend. I walk up to him. I didn't say anything or even looked at him. I just point at the shop.

Push open the glass door. Went to take a bottle of Maggi chili sauce. (Which i already plan to use it as my prop or defensive/offensive weapon, in case something gone wrong.) Walked towards the counter with the bottle in hand. The friend followed him back to the counter and still talking to him. After they stopped talking, and the other man went out. The fun starts.

Before I started talking, Mr. Motherfucker already had "My boss.....bla... bla... bla " coming out of his mouth. Before he finishes his sentence, I yelled at the mofo. It happened so fast that I don't really recall what i said. He still giving me the bullshit. I was holding the chili sauce bottle, then I slammed the bottle to the counter table. I'm sure there will be a dent on the counter-top, coz i knew i slammed fucking hard. I already knew this tactic will work.

He fucking dare to ask me why I'm so angry. I told him that i came here more than 5 bloody times to collect the money. Every time he would gave me the same bloody stupid excuses. And I kept fucking him hard. Then he phoned someone. I would suspect that he's calling for back-up since he got a situation staring down at him. And of course, I'm holding the glass bottle in my hand. After the phone call... everything went dead quiet. He opened up the cash register (reluctantly). I only saw RM1 notes. I'm sure he will fucking show that to me again so that i will fall for his bloody trap again. He lifted up the plastic casing that stores coins. Under that casing, he got 50bucks, hidden under it. He counted the money and give it to me. I 'grabbed' the money from him.

I paid for the bottle of chili sauce and left. I tried to slam the bloody glass door but unfortunately, there was this rack behind. It absorbed all the impact. And i walk back slowly to my place FEELING GREAT. There are times in your life that requires you to use brute force to achieve something. I'm sure that I will use it when it's necessary. When one way isn't working, i have to try it a different way. Just like playing video game, if you can beat the Big Boss with a certain strategy, you must change you way so that you can achieve victory.

Although this is not a moral behaviour to copy, but I'm seriously proud of myself today. Hell Yeah.

Faster Peeps

Still waiting for stuffs from NTUC. I don't really know why.. but things are very slow. Even though the dateline will on this Friday. But still there's only one page done. OMFG!!! I'm scared. Come on. Give me more.. Maybe later will play around with "Garageband" program. I already recorded two demo tracks. Which i pretty like esp the lead of an "untitled" song. I nail it on the spot for that. Eventhough there are some mistakes here and there. I satisfied.

Bad NEWS

Before i proceed to the bad news, i would like to share with you an incident this morning. I was still asleep when i received this call from my dad. As every dad would ask an unemployed son, "Did you get a job already?". So in a not so typical reply, i said "No, i'm doing freelance at the moment and won't be planning to get a job. Furthermore my boss gave me a freelance job to do and promised that there will be more to come in the future." He said "OK, then you 'chap sang' (loosely translated ~ You are on your own, son. Don't come home begging if you need money)

I'm targeting at least two jobs per month which is quite good. Can't reveal much more of the figure but just let's say that it will be at least more than 50% more than my last salary. Hey it's better than doing full-time and going for a safe job and permanent employment. I'm have nothing against permanent employment, it's just i felt sometimes it's not worthwhile doing it.

You worked like a bloody dog. You get paid enough, but you are not satisfied. You sacrifice your time to them. Well for us, the slave (designer) we got to work from let's say 9am in the morning till maybe the NEXT FUCKING MORNING (if your luck is bad enough). To make matter worst, it won't last a day or two. You might be getting a Super Combo doing a few days of SLAVERY. To all the designers, "PLEASE WAKE UP. YOU MIGHT LIKE YOUR JOB SO MUCH. BUT YOU DIDN'T REALISE THAT ALL THIS LATE NIGHTS AND ENDLESS WORKING HOURS WILL TAKE ITS TOLL ON YOU HEALTH LATER IN YOUR LIFE. IF YOU DON'T WANT YOUR KIDNEY GO BUSTING, PLEASE HEED THIS ADVICE ~ 'former' ARTSlave.

THE BAD NEWS.
Apparently.. LT's boss was not really satisfied with my work. So he decided to 'terminate' me from service. Sigh.. There goes my income. Well.. in a way, i really didnt blame him. I used to curse that particular person if something of a similar incident would happen. But, I've learn to let go. And i plan to get some stuff from him to start a small Little Trees Selling business. How cool was that. Hehe. Be positive. Even you got something bad just happened. You might get another way out. Just hang in there, ya.... AND BE POSITIVE

Blackburn vs Man Utd (1-1)

Oppss.. The Red Devils drew with Blackburn. Not really a good result but since they will be playing Chelsea next win, a win would be good enough. Thanks to Tevez's header 2mins from the stoppage time. We are currently considered safe.

Some pretty good news from former boss

I received a call from a former boss (which I'm still renting a place from him). He told me that for this project of 20 pages, i will be paid minimum of RM1.5K. He said to try to get 2K for me, which.. wow.. He said there are many projects like this in Singapore. Well, i hope i can get some more to do. Coz, if a month i can do 2 projects, it's better to work that way than being employed by some company. And the best of all.. I'm working from HOME!!!

I already told myself that i will be want to be a full time graphic designer anymore. Well i really wished it so hard that it came true. And best of all.. i had some projects to support myself. Better than working outside!!

I already told myself that i don't to have a 'safe' job. I'll be tied to the company for God-knows how long. Working like a slave for them. I'll rather be MY OWN SLAVE.

Mac Coming Home

Finally, I brought the iMac home. Not sure whether i should be happy or not since it already cost me 2K. Not a big sum for some people, but for it's like an investment really. I already got a small job from Alvin. Doing some page layout for them. Well Hopefully everything will be fine.

There's this Indian guy who really got on my nerves. I'm usually a very 'soft' and non-assertive person, so if can, i will try to avoid lending people money. In the end, i know it will be hard for me to collect them back. So the story's like this, when i went for a routine grocery shopping, the person who manned the counter asked me to help him. He wanted to cover the cash on the cash register. According to him, he paid his supplier twice, but only get one receipt. He paid extra. He asked for 150bucks. It was quite a huge sum to lend someone who i didn't know his name, so i only given him 50bucks. He promised to pay me back the next week.

So, i went to collect my money the following week, and he told me that his pay is not in yet, and he will pay me the next day. The next day, i didn't went to collect it. So the following Monday (the third week) I went again. To my surprise, he tried to delay the payment again. And that incident happened sometime early March. Now it's already April 18th.

Sometimes IT DOES NOT PAY TO BE A GOOD PERSON. SO IN THE END, BECAUSE I TRIED TO BE NICE, I MUST HAVE TO BE A BAD MOTHERFUCKER TO GET BACK MY MONEY. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG IN THIS WORLD?!!!

Hail Gilbert!!!

Watching some video of Paul Gilbert on YouTube. Since i heard of him, i've been always in awe with his playing. Now.. i think i'm just gonna go home and cry.

I can't read your MIND.. so tell it to me.

Well, i guess LT's boss got his own ideas in his head already with the design. This is with some people. They got an opinions / ideas / preferences in their head in certain issue and design but then they didn't say anything until everything is done (they will just tell you, do this design, i want funky design, etc). So when you worked your fucking ass off and finished with the design, they come you and said that it wasn't like what they pictured in their mind.

Come on people.... If you got something in your head, tell me. I can't read your mind, god-damn-it. Now i have to redo the whole thing AGAIN.

It's the fucking same with Rike Cool. No instruction, no nothing and soon after your completed the artwork, they say that you left out this logo, that text, this picture and yadda.. yadda yadda...
Arghhhhh!!!!!! When Rike Cool fucked me up twice, i rejected their work. I'm not gonna let people fuck me up side down thrice.

More Problems Ahead

It seems to me that the stuff that i did for "Little Trees" were all rejected. Now, i think is is really a bad sign. I don't think there's anything wrong with the design. I'm just worried that the boss is a bit old-school type of person.

Must settle this problem first. If not, how am i going to survive without any income this month. Damn...