My War

Went for an interview earlier this morning. I'm really desperate now. I don't know why but sometimes I think I'm a bit TOO OPTIMISTIC or TOO IMPATIENT. Months ago when I was out of work, I'm very very optimistic. That I'm going to go through this by doing my own stuff. But looks like it that I won't be able to make it that soon (well... that's the "TOO OPTIMISTIC" part). Furthermore, I can't afford to wait for Little Trees boss to offer me the job.

I've reading quite a number of books on Business and Entrepreneurship. And as Michael E. Gerber would say it, it will definitely sparked off the Entrepreneur spirit in you. It's normal. Suddenly you felt that you are gonna start off SOMETHING OUT OF NOTHING. You are out to CONQUER THE WORLD. You feel that your BALLS are BIGGER. You just wanna escape your boss. Unfortunately, even you wanted to start off something or anything, most of the time, it's the Technician who's doing all the job. The Technician is the part of your personality who likes to do the technical work in a business. 'He' just like to work, not plan or manage. So, when you had this aspect of your personality to work on a business... YOU ARE DOOMED. In this case... I'M DOOMED. Sometimes in life, you can't just jump into something without testing the waters or you already bring in 'enough gadgets' to get you through it. I've learnt my lesson.

Now, I need to survive before I can start another 'WAR'. Gotta get a job first (yes Chyn, you won this time), then when you enough preparation, the BATTLEFIELD awaits. I won't GIVE UP that easily.